Friday, July 29, 2005
no motivation
slacking away
thats what happened today
did zero work whatsoever at home.
To hell with work for today,
i need a breather
like a mini beach where u can just sit and chill
and check out hot babes.
what the heck august is almost here
shitz too fast and too furious time is passing by
weekend got a lot of things to do
got to study for hist paper 2 test
got to do maths tutorial
got to do hist outlines for paper 3
got to cut my hair
got to get a life
oh yeah today
during maths lesson
the teacher inflicted emotional humiliation on a female classmate
why?
over something called a uniform
Hah stupid regulations. cj admin should open their eyes and look at how other college pple are wearing their uniform. Leave the poor cj students alone
hm i think if i dun cut my hair, next week may get into trouble.
argh
i still think too much,
havent had the chance to go and grab new mags to read
i'm still lokking for the fast and furious dvd
street racing culture is kinda apealing to me , haha hope i will still be into it when i grow up.
and get a drving license.
11:57:00 PM
quick update
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
ai this update shall be a short one
feeling groggy and tired, lack of sleep for the past few days.
Today
ECOns mock exam
Detention cos late for assembly
finally cleared Napha with all silver
must work on stamina, running 2.4 still problematic
argh, i want a day of pure relaxation, this pace is maddening
and all the mock exams are drawing closer to.
enough said, for now, i desperately need some sleep
damn headaches will finally dissapear when i get my beauty sleep.
11:44:00 PM
Thursday, July 21, 2005
alrite this song is more suited for girls than guys. But the what the hell, i like it, so i'll post it here.
Argh theres still hw to be done and i am procastinating once again, sianz, hw hw hw, never ending cycle.
Bah. Today had racial harmony celebrations, went to the hall to see performances, u could see a lot the girls had nice and fanciful costumes, not to forget, some of them exposed their backs and flesh.........nyuk nyuk i sound like a pervert. Ahem back to the topic, anywayz there was this tradtitional malay and indian wedding, very informative, gives u insight to how other races hold their weddings. Yeah too bad no extended break like in sec skool where u can go and buy tradtional food to eat. By the time it was break, all the prata was sold out, BOOOOOOOOOO, i wanna eat prata!!!!!!!!
yeah, later in class, the girls went on a photo frenzy, taking pics of one another with digi cams and camera phones. Man i am really a klutz in digi cams, i had to ask how to use a digi cam when asked to help some of them take a pic.
yeah it got me thinking, i realise i dun take a lot of pics, most of the pics i have are by myself and not with others
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i guess, i ain good when it comes to interacting to others, bah.......
Hillary duff- wake up
There's people talkingThey talk about meThey know my nameThey think they know everythingBut they don't know anythingAbout meGive me a dance floor
Give me a dj
Play me a record
Forget what they say
Cause I need to go
Need to getaway tonight
I put my makeup on a saturday night
I try and make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes I'm living life day to dayIt's never really easy but it's okWake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London,Paris maybe Tokyo
There's something going on anywhere I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight
The cities restless
It's all around me
People in motion
Sick of all the same routines
And they need to go
They need to get away
Tonight
I put my makeup on a saturday night
I try and make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I'm living life day to day
It's never really easy but it's ok
Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London,Paris maybe Tokyo
There's something going on anywhere I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight
People all around youEverywhere that you goPeople all around youThey don't really know you Everybody watching like it's some kind of showEverybody's watchingThey don't really know you now(They don't really know you)(They don't really know you)And foreverWake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London,Paris maybe Tokyo
There's something going on anywhere I go
Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There's something going on anywhereI go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight
9:20:00 PM
cheery?
man tml is racial harmony day, and everyone in my class has to wear some kind of traditional custome. Ugh i have never worn ani custome in my entire life, tml i will be wearing half a costume, haha the top is traditional, the pants is just the plain old skool uniform
this is a bad time to be blogging cos its late at nite and i am supposed to be in bed. Nevertheless i just have to blog today. Theres still a lot of work to be done, ugh history as usual has the heaviest workload for now. Over the weekend must start studying for the darn econs mock exam next wednesday
>_<Cheery lyrics are what i need now. Sweety pie hillary duff has some nice songs that appeal to your senses. Haha well it sure is teenage pop music, not the usual rock, techno, but what the heck, it sounds nice.
Hillary duff -come clean
Let's go backBack to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned'
Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no lie
I defy
[CHORUS:]Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm comimg clean, I'm coming clean
I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin
'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind
[CHORUS]
I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming clean
[CHORUS]
Let's go back
Back to the beginning
12:44:00 AM
Sunday, July 17, 2005
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well well the end of the weekend is here again. Once again the vicious cycle of trudging to school begins all over again as it has been for the past 70 weeks , day in day out , sit at ur desk, talk to ur classamates, gossip if u got info, sit and stone, listen to teacher talk when u are acually siting at ur desk thinking about stuff.
Look around , misery and sadness among teens has been capitalised by the music industry, look at the songs nowadays dealing with issues related to teens.
Dun u just find being a teen so trying
mixed emotions, crushes on the opposite sex, hormonal overdrive,
the struggle to socialise and be seen as someone who is not just ur average joe/blonde. Ur parents harp at u, teachers hate u, u hate the world, u just wanna scream so hard that ur lungs burst, u wanna run away from all problems, u wish this world be nicer to u,
u cling on to ur friends, they provide u with the companionship that keeps u sane among all the madness, their presence brings an unspeakable feeling of being relaxed.
Studies are ur priority or so ur parents and teachers harp to u. u hate to admit it but they are damn true no matter how much u hate skool. Reality bites hard, u need the damn piece of paper called an education certficate just to find jobs, college degrees are the minimum or say they so to get a decent job. Add it to the singaporean context of striving to be the best at everyting, it places a crushing load on both kids in primary, teens in secondary, older teens in jc/ply/ite and adults in university. Why just to get the 5c's
i should be doing my work now, but there isnt just the damn mood to do so, its gonna be hard the next few months, how much longer before insanity takes its toll i wont know. i only hope i have the strength to hold on..........
yeah i been saying that for ages, just keep holding on and keep swimming.
9:57:00 PM
aftermath of mid year results
Friday, July 15, 2005
SIGH
the weekend is finally here again
bliss from the hustle of skool
temporary respite from stress, shit, problems
got back mid year results
not that good
D for hist, E for econs and O for maths
thinking about econs pisses me off........... just cant do case study for nuts...........
maths though still a bad grade, i am ok with it for i made some improvements...
history......ok ..........but i hate having to study all the damn content.......... overload!!!!!
managed to pass gp this time with c5
come to think of it, i have never performed well througout the past one and half years in jc, always mediorce, barely scraping through
SICKENING To know that the A levels are drawing ever nearer and teachers keep harping on u to get back to studying mood.
It s-i-c-k-e-n-i-n-g to hear every teacher say that when u noe its damn true, barely 4 months away to "A" levels...........
u study so hard just to get a piece of paper called a certificate to help u get into uni.
what if u dont make it, what happens to the 2 years spent?
Wasted? i dread to think of this happening,
once again my thoughts flash back to the time i got my O level results and my decisions i made in march 2004,
perhaps i made a mistake, i thought i could handle a pre-u course , I was damn wrong, i thought about crossing to poly in may 04 , no couldnt, objections from all corners, fine promos was over in oct, that was the last chance to get out of here.
Now its july 05 , i am still in cjc though since may 04 , i did not have to desire to remain, i read about other pple who crossed over to poly, they seem to be enjoying themselves but damn it, theres always this uncertainty, what u see may not be what u get.
Aniwaes the good things that happened this week
lunch with remy at nydc at holland v on tuesday, yum yum nice pasta, had a nice time chatting
wed went to town with cca mates, spent a lot of time looking for place to eat, in the end ate at kfc at taka, lol we got one free bbq chicken taco, lolz ate the thing and felt damn full, roamed around town , at hmv, haha no matter how mani times u go to orchard road, u wont find a shortage of pple.
today, left school early for ns medical checkup at 1 pm. waited for a while before it started, graded pes b but i havent taken the vocational assement, need to go back in august. Yux which reminds me, i cant get a silver for napha yet, must get it by the mid of august.
ah i want to enjoy this weekend to the fullest.......wait what am i doing at home typing this article??
9:05:00 PM
Friday, July 08, 2005
u've probably heard of it by now, an act of terror carried out against innocent civillians in london just one day after winning the bid to host the olympic games in 2012
a moment of silence for the victims............
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on the domestic stuff, got back some of my exam results today.
maths Failed once again, 42.5/100, improve by a couple of marks but still not good enough
history paper 3 , scrapped through with 25/50 , essay was a fluke with 7/25, was saved by sbq without it, i can forget about passing paper 3.
econs and gp have no idea.....
paper 2 history...i have a bad feeling about it.
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........ this weekend is going to be packed with so mani things to do, especailly all the damn hw
the urge to skip the retreat is irresistible
weekends are precious.........so precious that u long for it to last longer
..........longer...........longer...............
8:53:00 PM
Thursday, July 07, 2005
TOday is not a good day for me,
rather more like a farked up day
my stomach is annoying me once again
school sickens me
hw irks me
tests turn me off
i'm dissapointed with myself and my imperfections
the purpose of blogging is to inform objectivedly/ rant about who u dislike, your bitchings, stab pple in the back, snigger at the plight of others, post lyrics, whine about ur life, reflect like a lit student
sadly i fall victim to mani off these categories
where else can u attack pple or things u dun like so " freely" without fear of persecution
humans thrive on other pples misery, when u have power to dominate others the ugly side of human beings appear, u oppress the weak and ostracise those who cant fit in into the social norm.
sorri for these generalisations, sweeping statement it may sound.
somehow smoking looks kinda appealing, who noes, it may just be a good way to control stress
i dont have the guts to light up just yet.
well if u cant deal with problems , why not drown it by drinking, smoking, clubbing, doin crazy things???????????????
again its a damn conflict of conscious, u noe some of this things are harmful to ur health, but yet again u crave for anithing that can relieve u of stress if only for a moment.
8:59:00 PM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
for some strange reason
blogger is in chineses................
hm the last time this happened was due to some spyware on my comp i think, this time i dunno whats the problems
well the sucky routine known as school has started
and my teacher said this, i hope u had enjoyed urself thoroughly over the last weekend
well for me, in a way it was a holiday of some sort
a holiday of being with family only
which doesnt feel complete for some reasons
damn loneliness it just creeps in whenever i am not occupied
i would rather be with friends
but the thing
i am so distant from mani pple
how to get to know pple better like that
ah fark
actually there s a lot i wanna rant but i think i'll cut it short
maths can make u look like a fool when u spend an hour repeating the same mistake, causing u to tear ur hair out proclaiming that u have done everything according to the book only to find the mistake staring at you menancingly. U are literally " hit " by a sense of stupidity and anguish
i am looking for some lyrics now
hah, songs can summarise a lot of whats going on in ur life
oh yeah just now or rather earlier in the nite, i watched this movie called strip search, no its not some love flick or ani sort , it rather deals with the issues of ur personal liberties, would u give up all ur rights just to stop terrorism? The flick is powerful abit shocking too.
11:13:00 PM
Sunday, July 03, 2005
another of the few hw free, school free, stress free day is gone
that means just 2 more days until the routine of school resumes
YUUUUUUUUUUUUUXXXXXXXXxxxxx
how mani times have u heard that school sux, yeah sure now it may suck but somehow
i get the feeling things will also not be that smooth sailing
lets see a bought a game that came out in 97 for the psx, haha was looking for it in mani places, finally found it in parkway parade, 60 bucks for a 7 year old game is damn expensive if u ask me, haha considering i have played it before, i still dun mind buying it. haha i am sucker for final fantasy games. Final fantasy 7 still rox even though i played it mani times liao, cant wait for ADvent children to come out in september !!!!!!!!!
actually i wanted to buy "art of war" for the pc, but my comp cant support, dun have dvd rom, and my graphics card is nearly 4 years old since 01 havent changed .only 32mb bleahz, i think minimum now is 64 mb, got pple with 128 or even 256 mb now .
i was thinking about a psp as well, but the cost and the amount of time i can invest in playing it for now forces me to postphone the idea. argh i heard need for speed rivals for the psp is damn nice, argh i hope they port it to ps2, haha sucker for racing games .
so mani temptations to buy, but one thing that a guy who likes a lot but money cant buy is a kind and caring girl friend that understands him . hah this type of thing is those magical things that happens naturally, sorry ar me zero experience so cant say anithing about this.
its just me dreaming about the feeling even though i noe its not likely to happen to me soon, hah everytime keep thinking about chio bu, just cant get it out of my head.
1:52:00 AM
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Friday, July 01, 2005
Por Que No 2005 by Plazmatek feat United beats
Heaven is a place on earth by Dj Lhasa
Just some of the songs i am listening to now, trying to look for lyrics for these songs, erm but a bit hard to find, cos they are european, one is italian the other i think is portugese or spanish..
well thats why they call it eurodance isnt it, cos it originates from europe?
anywayz
i feel weird yeah
the exams are finally over
got a few days to totally slack away
hah that would be cool if u got company
by urself it aint so fun
but i'll manage
somehow
next sat will be the RME retreat wait not RME, haha influence from sec skool dayz
its called religion and moral education in cee jay
something that i am not looking foward to
it reminds me of the great escape i made at the end of last year
managed to pon the j1 retreat but at tremendous cost
end of oct 2004........
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i was on the run from bro paul for like 12 hours avoiding all callsrushing to the airport on friday nite hoping i would have the guts to call himgoing home at 2 am in the morning and paying 15 bucks of taxi fare cos of all the surchages, 50% surchage ......... when deciding to sleep over at the airport is a bad idea especally when i didnt bring a mat and couldnt find a nice seat.in the end called him on sat morning, met him on tuesday or wednesday cant remember the dateand had a lOOOOOOOOOOOoonnnng talk.............
yeah
but i dun think i can do that this time, no choice suck thumb have to go this year
the reason why i ponned was downright dumb and pathetic
i was basically avoiding some pple, up to now, in some ways i still do, no i wouldnt use avoid, no communication at all
damn, to think that i cant even handle some task like this, failing to recognise that u cant force things to be the way u want
life seems to be full of ironies and contradictions
ugh i dread to see whats in the future, no i shant bother about the future
the present is more important for me now.
oh for those who read my blog and dun understand the great escape part, just ignore it
oh its the first day of july... time has taken its toll on the calender once more striking off the month of june, sayonara june.
1:15:00 AM
